the big picture

i've spent a lot of time feeling lazy + restless lately.
a lot of time in my p.j.'s, doing what i can to work from home.
morning sickness has made me feel like i have 1/2 the energy and 2x's the amount to do.
i feel behind on about everything... probably even texting or calling you back.  (though my phone is missing, and so is my mind some days)
i feel like i'm making excuses (though i'm not) but i keep feeling like i have a flu bug that should be  g o n e by now.  that i should be able to just  f e e l  better and have the energy to run like i used to.

after weeks and weeks, and stress building up from unmet expectations, someone changed my perspective.

i recently transferred departments at the MTC.  I've moved from training young missionaries to training in the Senior/Mission President department.  currently i'm working with 3 sweet mission president's wives going to Mexico City, Nicaragua, and Argentina. i was meeting with one of them the other day,  and though i was meant to teach  h e r.  she taught and strengthened me more than i can say.

i'm giving life, to a little teeny tiny best friend i have yet to meet. 

she helped me to see that is no small thing.

for years i've pushed myself with learning, an education, jobs, and lofty dreams.  

i wanted to show heavenly father how grateful i am for the blessings i have.

to be born with so many privileges and freedoms.  

i felt it would be a shame to waste them and not push myself.

but somewhere along the line, i tipped the scale.

 what could be more important than sharing those blessings with my little one?

than helping them to live life to its fullest, and to share that with others.

to help this little one reach  t h e i r  potential.

my perspective is changing. 

i've always wanted to be a good mom.

but now it's finally become my main focus.

and that is O K.

in fact, it's what heavenly father intended.

so bring on the morning sickness.

my spirit is back.

photos by: amber lynn photography and alyssia b photography.  they are some of my greatest friends and their work is  d r e a m y.  i can't thank them enough for all their support.